Week No8

(I started this writing project for myself, straight from my soul to mind, no editing or trying to make it look right or correct. So, if you are all into the grammar thing, carry on with your life like I don't exist. This project is called 10 min a day.)

10 min a day Sunday 30/12/2018

I went to the cinema today with my girls. With the girls, I used to went to high school. I had a chat with one of them afterwards and realised that I told her everything that I supposed to hear for myself. Everything. I was talking to her because she needed it but, I needed it more.

It’s very straight forward, but it’s not. The question is, are you the queen or a farmer? Nothing wrong with any, as far you are aware what you are and it’s something you want to be.

10 min a day Monday 31/12/2018

Gosh, I really wish I could say I have my shit together, but I honestly don’t. I wish I would say I have the plan for 2919, but I honestly don’t. Everyone is reflecting 2018 and I am like, still shocked what the hell happened and it’s the last day of 2018.

I was walking my dogs alone today and relished how much I loved doing this. This is the time that I have for myself, with my own thoughts I felt so happy just walking with them freely thinking.

Dear 2018 thank you but I am so happy you are done. In 2019 I wish I will be healthy and to find my own voice.

10 min a day Tuesday 01/01/2019

I asked my friend,

Can you forget someone existence?

She answered,

Do you remember your exes?

I said,

No.

She said,

Than yes.

I said,

What if I would say, yes I do remember?

She said,

Then I will find something that you don’t remember and my answer will still be yes.

- a real friend knows how to be a real friend.

Happy new year.

10 min a day Wednesday 02/01/2019

Today I googled, for the first time since I moved to London, how to rent a flat in Beckenham if you have a dog.

10 min a day Thursday 03/01/2019

I spend the day with my mum and auntie. We went for coffee, coffee and cake. It was a girly afternoon without kids and no noise. I was so happy to run away from all noise. Don’t understand me wrong, I love kids and especially my nephews and nieces. But sometimes auntie Mina needs a break. One of the places that I usually visit when back in Slovenia is cafe called Zvezda. They have the best cakes in town.

10 min a day Friday 04/01/2019

I stuck in a lift today.

I have to take responsibility for my own acts. I have to take responsibility for decisions that I made. I have to look the true into eyes. I have to eat the poo I cooked. I have to swallow what I chewed. Well, that’s last sound discussing. Anyway, I have to accept the circumstances of my own acts. I have to accept them and let myself move on. Not away from it but just to move on. Try to do my best job from now.

Why am I so hard on myself and how do you stop being hard on yourself?

10 min a day Saturday 05/01/2019

What’s wrong with me, I asked my friend today.

She said nothing you are just different and the sooner you accept this, the sooner you will be happier.